Before going 2 sleep last nite, I suddenly felt so sad, guilty, uneasy n restless. I kept thinking of d words posted on FB. Not mine, but bliaw's!!
I thought (n am still thinking) whether that phrase was meant for me?? So, with a reluctant heart n giving everything up (even thinking to end my relationship with bliaw), I sent blent this msg..
"jutaan maaf dipinta juga tidak berguna jika tiada keampunan dihulurkan. tapi andai khilaf diriku tiada keampunan darimu,hukumlah ku semahu mu, jika itu dapat memberi kebahagiaan buatmu, ku terima seadanya. cukuplah ku tahu dirimu tiada duka dan lebih bahagia tanpa hadirku.. terima kasih atas segalanya~~ maaf ku pohon dari kejauhan.."
Then at dawn, i received bliaw's msg saying dat I didn't do him wrong. So there was no need 2 say sorry. I just read dat msg heartlessly until d second msg arrived.. Again bliaw msged wondering what wrong had bliaw done 2 make me sent such msg 2 bliaw. I felt really sorry for bliaw. I sholudn't have done it!!! I shudn't have msged bliaw at all!!
Poor bliaw.. Had so much 2 think n yet had 2 think about my nonsensical behaviour n lame messages!!!
~shaz!! u shudn't haf done dat!! u love bliaw rite?? then y did u do such things?? don't blame anyone if smtg shud happen 2 ur relationship.. u jeopardized it ur own!!
sToRy Of My LiFe..
How my life goes.. People don't know the process n the flow. People always intend to misjudge me. I just don't understand why.. This is one of the ultimate reasons for me to share this blog with those who really need to get to know me better and would like to see the different view of life. All I have here is just to express what I could, from my experiences and things, people that I love. Looks rather simple, but trust me, it is very tough!! Venture down my words and nurture the good once out and save the undesired once, probably for a second opinion. Enjoy your readings!! CHIEF MAFIA